No, ladies and gentlemen, contrairly to popular beleif I am not a robot nor a super comupter. I'm a human, and like every human I have problems. Basically, it's almost impossible for me to fully intergrate (sp?) with just about anyone in my school. Reasons for this? Being different. Oh yes, we've all heard the story about the wierd kid that stays in his corner playing his Gameboy Color every recess. But this is a different case. I'm a very social person. I've never had any trouble making friends. In fact, I even make friends with people whom I don't like, because I do it even without thinking. It's that easy for me. But even though I have many many friends, I still feel alone. Because none of them truly understands me. My school is rather small (600 students or so). Only two of my friends listen to metal. Out of those two, one is too young to understand. But that's not a major problem. I get along with anyone, even if the listen to rap, techno, folk or punk...
The real "problem" is that I don't smoke (that means drugs & cigarettes) nor drink. Never. I hate the taste of alcohol. I hate the smell of weed. I hate the simple fact of consuming a substance that changes your behaviour, legal or not, just for the pleasure. To me it's discusting. But my friends think it's fun. They think it's normal. Most of them accept the fact that I don't smoke or drink, but ditch me every time they want to do so. As a result, I don't get invited to parties (because that's mostly what they do there), and I get ditched every time they decide to get high or drunk. And that pisses me off. It also pisses me off that every good looking, smart or interesting girl has been "forced", by social pressure, into such behaviour (I also hate sluts, but that's another story).
So there you have it, my little rant.
The real "problem" is that I don't smoke (that means drugs & cigarettes) nor drink. Never. I hate the taste of alcohol. I hate the smell of weed. I hate the simple fact of consuming a substance that changes your behaviour, legal or not, just for the pleasure. To me it's discusting. But my friends think it's fun. They think it's normal. Most of them accept the fact that I don't smoke or drink, but ditch me every time they want to do so. As a result, I don't get invited to parties (because that's mostly what they do there), and I get ditched every time they decide to get high or drunk. And that pisses me off. It also pisses me off that every good looking, smart or interesting girl has been "forced", by social pressure, into such behaviour (I also hate sluts, but that's another story).
So there you have it, my little rant.
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