I just need help understanding myself, my reality.
You know that there are many types of people, by the way they think, in the world. Usually, most people narrow down human beings to two categories, people who do this/people who are this and people who don't do this/people who aren't this, such and such. I really can't say what I want to know. However-----
I guess you can say, what I wanted to know....
If life is going to be that hard when you grow older? (I'm 14)
Or should I be categorizing myself? It seems that everyone I see, they have this name above them, which categorizes them. (Examples: celebrities, designers, authors, the smart one, the funny one...etc.etc.)
There's this doubt I have in myself: that I wouldn't last in the 'real' world.
Heh, I guess I'm frustrated that I can't understand anything at this age, most kids would. I know the difference between right and wrong, but I have a low-self-esteem. And, I keep thinking in my head that we categorized, maybe I should use:impress, people on how they act, talk, and think.
Most opinions that others have placed on me have all concluded the same fact: I am an observant person on how people act, talk, and think. Though I don't like it, I make quick conclusions about people.
The saying, 'the first impression is the impression that gonna make it last.'
You know, something like that.
But you see, I've made the conclusion about myself that I'm a person that I do not want to be.
These are 10 ways I describe myself.
1. I distant myself from groups who look down on me, conclusions from my quick thoughts.
2. I'm a social butterfly, I can befriend anyone who is willing to be a friend.
3. I'm a bookworm, I recently started to dislike exercising.
4. I yearn for the outside world, to breath in fresh air, to walk on nature, to see the beauty of the world.
5. I've become a person who gives out good advice and don't listen to my own advice.
6. I dress in dark colors and often wear the same type of outfits every time I go out.
7. I crave attention.
8. I am unique.
9. My emotions are going through a confused state. I try to understand things, but I know that I can't.
10. I'm a sad, lonely, kid who loves to draw, write, dream out his fantasies.
I want to be someone different from how I am now, but there's something that's stopping me to do so. I don't know what is stopping me, but I really want to know. It's like I want to change both the 'outside me' and the 'inside me' without getting much attention.
I'm trying so hard to figure out what's wrong with me, if there's anything wrong with me, and it's hard to understand myself.
It seems that my mind is saying, if I can't understand myself, how can I understand anything?
I guess you can say, what I wanted to know....
If life is going to be that hard when you grow older? (I'm 14)
Or should I be categorizing myself? It seems that everyone I see, they have this name above them, which categorizes them. (Examples: celebrities, designers, authors, the smart one, the funny one...etc.etc.)
There's this doubt I have in myself: that I wouldn't last in the 'real' world.
Heh, I guess I'm frustrated that I can't understand anything at this age, most kids would. I know the difference between right and wrong, but I have a low-self-esteem. And, I keep thinking in my head that we categorized, maybe I should use:impress, people on how they act, talk, and think.
Most opinions that others have placed on me have all concluded the same fact: I am an observant person on how people act, talk, and think. Though I don't like it, I make quick conclusions about people.
The saying, 'the first impression is the impression that gonna make it last.'
You know, something like that.
But you see, I've made the conclusion about myself that I'm a person that I do not want to be.
These are 10 ways I describe myself.
1. I distant myself from groups who look down on me, conclusions from my quick thoughts.
2. I'm a social butterfly, I can befriend anyone who is willing to be a friend.
3. I'm a bookworm, I recently started to dislike exercising.
4. I yearn for the outside world, to breath in fresh air, to walk on nature, to see the beauty of the world.
5. I've become a person who gives out good advice and don't listen to my own advice.
6. I dress in dark colors and often wear the same type of outfits every time I go out.
7. I crave attention.
8. I am unique.
9. My emotions are going through a confused state. I try to understand things, but I know that I can't.
10. I'm a sad, lonely, kid who loves to draw, write, dream out his fantasies.
I want to be someone different from how I am now, but there's something that's stopping me to do so. I don't know what is stopping me, but I really want to know. It's like I want to change both the 'outside me' and the 'inside me' without getting much attention.
I'm trying so hard to figure out what's wrong with me, if there's anything wrong with me, and it's hard to understand myself.
It seems that my mind is saying, if I can't understand myself, how can I understand anything?
I can help you here. Anime sheet music = 
I love playing my favorite songs just by ear, though. I hear the song in my head, even if I haven't listened to it in several days, weeks, or even months, then slowly figure out then play out the melody(s) through my trumpet. 
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