How do I forget about Love? I want my obsession for this one boy to stop. Things aren't working out...he doesn't like me, his friends don't like me, and he as a 'douche' reputation. I keep coming back for his cute smile, his occasionally crudely humorous jokes, and his musicianship. I stare rejection straight in the face but I don't know how to come to grips that he doesn't want a friend that thinks he's sexy.
I constantly get the urges to talk with him, tell him how I feel and how it feels impossible to forget about those qualities about him. Maybe that would be too extreme, but I feel that it's only after I talk with him about these things that it will make things right again.
But I'm horribly afraid about the bullying. The last time I tried this, he started to bully me and made fun of me for liking him. I assumed that it was an attempt to dislodge my obsession for him but to no avail, I still fell back into love's grip.
Though the bullying has stopped, every time I look at him or he looks at me, my heart aches. To me, the world dims slightly and it just feels like a fruitless future. The moments that could have happened, the intimate relationship could have had, the laughs that we could have laughed together...Those thoughts in conjunction with the thought that those moments would never happen I believe is the source of this obsession.
I want to forget about love. I want to live my life before it becomes too dark to see anything. How, how do I forget about him? How do I confront my fears about talking with him? How do I deal with his hatred toward me? How will I deal with the hatred I will have for him once this ordeal is over?
yea, I realize that he isn't worth it. Faking not liking him...I think that would make me think about him even more. And when I do break, I'll be considered a liar. I want to be real with my emotions. The problem is that I'm too afraid of getting hurt again...so afraid that I refuse to try to get to know the person more...the only way that I'll be able to focus on his negatives. I'll need to find a strategy on how to approach him without me feeling like I'm jumping off a cliff. Usually, what happens when I do try, my brain freezes and my mouth stops working. Then my body wants to run away as fast as possible.
One more thing to clarify...
I am a guy. Yes, I like men.
If you are 18 or younger get over it. It just a relationship if the person is being a dipsh1t get the hell out of it and stop being an idiot. Move on big deal. It is only your younger years a test run for when you are older. If you are older than that sucks but you still got to get your head out of your ass (or his dick out of your ass) and move the fuk on. Seriously. I might sound harsh and mean but im just being honest.
Allow me, an adult, to give you a legitimate answer.
Wanna be able to move on? Stop talking to him.
No really. Stop. Completely. Stop trying to contact this person through facebook or myspace. Stop talking to them in a friend none of voice hoping that maybe the person will come around in some point of weakness in the future. Stop pretending that you can be just friends and understand the painful realization that talking to said person only perpetuates your paranoia and obsession. Don't talk to them on Aim. Barely acknowledge them in the halls and consider even being an ass in order to continue breaking down the friendship.
This sort of one-sided friendship never works and isn't healthy. Whatever you do, don't rationalize being friends with said person because you'll only get hurt.
One sided love
Is never gonna work
So let me tell you something
That' I'm sure you've never heard of
Tender love and care
In case you're unaware
So I tell you what
Let me tell you where it's at
Hit me with your best shot
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Originally Posted byjewpinthethird[link]: "If you get stung by enough bees you turn into a bee,
because the venom gets into the blood stream which
spreads bee DNA throughout your entire body...
changing your genetic structure into a bee's.
Every year roughly 125 people in America are turned into bees this way."
Originally Posted byMrRubix[link]: "Do you basically bukkake-paint your walls every time you jack it?" Originally Posted byAll_That_Chaz[link]: "My pity-sex depreciates at a rate of 5% annually."
If you were a girl, I think you'd be cute
but as you are a boy, I just want to **** you
If you were a girl, we could hold hands
but as you are a boy, I just want to **** you
If you were a girl, I'd tell you you're pretty
but as you are a boy, I just want to **** you
If you were a girl, I'd love you so deep
but as you are a boy, I just want to **** you
Oooh, oooh, you are such a boy
A boy who I waaannntt to ****.
Oooh, oooh, you are such a boy
and not a girl like I expected
Why is it so hard to find a girl
who I want to have sex with
is it because they are all ugly
and only boys are cute?
Maybe it had to do with my oatmeal
Which was kind of really lumpy this morning
And the morning before, I skipped breakfast
Which you really shouldn't do, as it is the most important meal of the day.
I used to believe in something, you know? A long time ago, when I was young, and I could stare up at the world in wide eyed wonderment, and just think about life and all the possibilities before me. I would get overwhelmed at the direction my life could take, and who all I would take with me on my many travels. I decided that perhaps it would be best if I travelled alone, to carry no baggage with me, and no expectations. And it was good, this decision. I eat at diners sometimes and leave before the check gets there. I wouldn't do that with a travelling companion. Sometimes, I pick up hobos and tell them I used to be a clown, and when they ask me to tell them a joke, I act all angry and shove them out of the car, and shout, "Joke that, you bum!" while shaking my fist. And on other days, I stare up at the night sky and wonder if anyone is staring at it with me.
Some days I wish I was born a girl
who could get a sex change
and be a rockin' boy
I want to seperate myself from myself
and be 2 people
Like the Prestige
only I would constantly **** the other me
People would say, are you twins, are you twins
and I would just smile
and **** my twin
cause I guess we are twins or something
And at the end of the day
I'd lay down and pray
To end this misery
And maybe have some fried icecream.
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Originally Posted byjewpinthethird[link]: "If you get stung by enough bees you turn into a bee,
because the venom gets into the blood stream which
spreads bee DNA throughout your entire body...
changing your genetic structure into a bee's.
Every year roughly 125 people in America are turned into bees this way."
Originally Posted byMrRubix[link]: "Do you basically bukkake-paint your walls every time you jack it?" Originally Posted byAll_That_Chaz[link]: "My pity-sex depreciates at a rate of 5% annually."
This is like a homosexual version of Twilight, with violence!
As a person who has purposefully put herself in a similar, hurtful situation... I suggest you do what I did. Tell him to **** off and get the hell out of his face forever.
hahaha you guys are hilarious XD
one thing i've learned here is that i definitely need to lighten up. this is only a high school 'thing' and will only be a high school 'thing' i've only got...7 months~? til i get to college. i remember reading something about how much easier it is to find fags there
Originally posted by Tibs
do you have a picture of this but instead, playing the saxophone? xD
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Heh. Yeah. It's easier to find gay people in colleges. Trust me I know.
*shifty eyes* I don't know that well! I just meant that these places tend to be bastions for liberal mindsets. This is where all the losers in college get packed up with so much post-high school drama in their first semester once they realize it's not like TV and they get fantastic "revelations" saying that they aren't out to please anyone anymore to justify them wanting to sleep around. Yea. Freshman girls are sluts.
College sure does attract a lot of fags, but I don't know about gay people...
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Originally Posted byjewpinthethird[link]: "If you get stung by enough bees you turn into a bee,
because the venom gets into the blood stream which
spreads bee DNA throughout your entire body...
changing your genetic structure into a bee's.
Every year roughly 125 people in America are turned into bees this way."
Originally Posted byMrRubix[link]: "Do you basically bukkake-paint your walls every time you jack it?" Originally Posted byAll_That_Chaz[link]: "My pity-sex depreciates at a rate of 5% annually."
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