cry for help

**devonin** · 03-3-2019, 12:07 PM

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It's not shit, and it is good that you feel the community here is a place where you can bring this up. You're not alone. You're known here, and cared about, and respected.

**Funnygurl555** · 03-3-2019, 12:14 PM

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thank you. thanks feels like an understatement honestly

edit: i have to sideline this feeling for now. some friends told me they're gonna see my standup set tn and it's... unfinished..

**Shireen_dg** · 03-3-2019, 12:36 PM

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I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling that way

I don't know you but your words reached close to my heart.

I hope you will feel better eventually.

**Funnygurl555** · 03-3-2019, 01:37 PM

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update: i talked with my fam and they're gonna try to get me in a facility tomorrow/soon (do not have health insurance through my job anymore 'cause i was too unfit to work; they're trying to figure out how to get me on something)

sorry for this fucking thread. life just sucks though

@shireen thanks man <3

edit2: i still have to do this fking set. ugh

**devonin** · 03-3-2019, 01:41 PM

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You are allowed to not do the set. The inconvenience to the place isn't as important as your mental health.

**Funnygurl555** · 03-3-2019, 01:42 PM

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it'd partly make me happy if it went well, but it's also a lot of mental labor. i don't know what to do

edit: yeah ima do it. like it'd legit make me happy (i wrote partly but fuck that wonky shit). unless i bombed, which is possible, since it's my first time..................... .______________________________________. \0/

edit 2: also, devonin, honestly thanks. i didn't have the best opinion of you based on shit i've heard, but the words you've said(posted?) helped me more than you (might) know, and i'm thankful for that

**V-Ormix** · 03-3-2019, 01:59 PM

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eating and sleeping feels amazing

I bring this up cause I always feel on some sort of edge of meaningless existence and or depressed but then I take a nap or get some thing to eat and woopdy doo iam content another day :v

sorry if this contributed 0 to ur situation but really tho take it easy :>

**Funnygurl555** · 03-3-2019, 02:05 PM

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Originally posted by V-Ormix

eating and sleeping feels amazing

I bring this up cause I always feel on some sort of edge of meaningless existence and or depressed but then I take a nap or get some thing to eat and woopdy doo iam content another day :v

sorry if this contributed 0 to ur situation but really tho take it easy :>

hey, that contributes! i haven't eaten in a while (i have slept, although sporadically), so i'll make something now!

edit: i often do the depression nap thing too (like when you're sad so you sleep and then wake up happier. i think this is what you were talking about). but recently i've been waking up with a strong urge to die, so i've been drinking to make it go away

edit 2: and that sounds more grave than i want it to be, but i'll be getting help soon which is a plus

**GeekSquad** · 03-3-2019, 02:16 PM

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i didnt know you did standup

**V-Ormix** · 03-3-2019, 02:30 PM

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well yah in theory a lot of these problems derive from a chemical state in the body or at least that's the way I look at it. sleeping and waking up usually is the closest thing to a reset button but I guess you're body might be in a gradually distancing state to be able to reset itself on a regular basis... hmmm exercise or a good multi vitamin might be able to give you're body some thing do with :U

**V-Ormix** · 03-3-2019, 02:59 PM

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depression is weird tho cuz it can be so hard to really articulate what it feels like too, and it has a way of making you feel as if you 'want' to feel that way even though it feels terrible... maybe a product of the nature of life itself were trying to balance moods too uncertainly or another can cause confusion and digress from thoughts or actions that'd other wise bring you hapiness or at the very least peace...

I always like to deconstruct the word depression as being de-pressed or un pressed or even still not 'being' pressed to do anything. and the thought always reoccurs to you "well yah, people can *tell* me what to do but surely all this difficult time I'm having couldn't be *that* simple to fix... could it??" they clearly don't understand me if they think such SIMPLE advice or answers can cure me over night :v

Idk and getting too elaborate or deep might not be the sort of thing that'd help you depending on the kind of person you are, but sparking the conversation with food for thought might help you equalize yourself mentally temporarily.

**Funnygurl555** · 03-3-2019, 03:12 PM

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Originally posted by GeekSquad

i didnt know you did standup

i don't! although i did improv in college

i used to go to open mics at school and improv a stand up set since every performer got a t-shirt, but those sets were horrible. t-shirts were lit though and i wore them with pride

Originally posted by V-Ormix

depression is weird tho cuz it can be so hard to really articulate what it feels like too, and it has a way of making you feel as if you 'want' to feel that way even though it feels terrible... maybe a product of the nature of life itself were trying to balance moods too uncertainly or another can cause confusion and digress from thoughts or actions that'd other wise bring you hapiness or at the very least peace...

I always like to deconstruct the word depression as being de-pressed or un pressed or even still not 'being' pressed to do anything. and the thought always reoccurs to you "well yah, people can *tell* me what to do but surely all this difficult time I'm having couldn't be *that* simple to fix... could it??" they clearly don't understand me if they think such SIMPLE advice or answers can cure me over night :v

Idk and getting too elaborate or deep might not be the sort of thing that'd help you depending on the kind of person you are, but sparking the conversation with food for thought might help you equalize yourself mentally temporarily.

(just wanted to say i got myself to eat something)

Originally posted by same v-ormix quote

well yah, people can *tell* me what to do but surely all this difficult time I'm having couldn't be *that* simple to fix... could it??" they clearly don't understand me if they think such SIMPLE advice or answers can cure me over night :v

over the past couple of months i've been bombarded with advice (that was unfortunately often useless) and messages of "just snap out of it"

so shit, i feel that. i feel being misunderstood. it's stressful for me to talk to people for real (i put up a front that i'm ok most of the time), and it's partly because i don't want to deal with fruitless advice.

the other part is that it's shameful to be weak. haha now im sobering up and am like "tf why did i make this thread". maybe (edit 3 or 4: likely. (thanks for being good sports)) ffr's not the right place for something like this, but i think it's good to admit that i'm weak in general

**devonin** · 03-3-2019, 04:49 PM

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Originally posted by Funnygurl555

edit 2: also, devonin, honestly thanks. i didn't have the best opinion of you based on shit i've heard, but the words you've said(posted?) helped me more than you (might) know, and i'm thankful for that

I'd bet most of what you've heard comes from people who are on the receiving end of my doing my job as a moderator, and not from people who actually interact with me outside a position of authority.

the other part is that it's shameful to be weak. haha now im sobering up and am like "tf why did i make this thread". maybe (edit 3 or 4: likely. (thanks for being good sports)) ffr's not the right place for something like this, but i think it's good to admit that i'm weak in general

It's very laudable for somebody to realize they're near a breaking point, and have the wherewithal to make it known to others that they could use a hand. Even more so to be willing to accept help and kind words even from people you had a low opinion of.

Take care of yourself. Get the help you need. The community here is here for you, and we'll be here when you get back.

**flashflash account** · 03-3-2019, 06:57 PM

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it comes and it goes, such is its nature
the hardest thing is how good it can feel
a warm fuzzy blanket made of negativity

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