Tool
Posted on: February 23, 2015, at 10:17:19am

A tool is something you take out of the tool box when you NEED it.
When you need to fix something or take something apart .
And once you are finished, you put it away.
And wait until the next time you need it.
It's not something you want....just what you need.
That's how she used to see herself when someone needed her.
She gave that person the attention when they needed it
she listened, cared, comforted, and lifted that person out of the hole they were in.
But once they felt better, they forgot about her.
Put her away like she's some tool and took out her when she was needed.
She didn't care, because she just wanted to make people happy.
She kept on smiling when the just walked away.
The sad part is nobody was there when she needed someone.
And sadly nobody cared either.
She never liked to tell people how she felt or what she thought because she was afraid she would burden them.
She kept giving up her happiness for other people
That's what kept her going.
And when she failed someone she would be disappointed in herself
Knowing she failed someone and would keep trying again.
Eventually she grew tired of being just someone who kept getting put away.
She got tired of the lies.
She wanted to find something real that wouldn't use her.
But this world is so corrupted.
If she was a little selfish, people would get upset at her.
Shut her out and soon she began to realize who her friends were.
But she still cared too much and kept giving chances to people who didn't deserve it.
Still tired of being used,
But she kept going forward, trying to take care of herself rather than others.
Because she wants to be wanted not needed.
She is not at tool anymore,
She is not someone's temporary fix.
And refuses to be one again.

-Sika 1/18/15

Based off: "I see myself like a tool, I'm there for someone when they need me but once they are better they put me away. I show I care and try to make then happy because they smile I smile...that's what keeps me going....my daily goal is to make someone smile...."