Labyrinth
Posted on: May 15, 2014, at 09:40:44pm

I’m standing still, dreaming of the future, wondering what is to come.
In front of me is a labyrinth, filled with mysteries, tears of sadness and happiness.
Many people are sent to their own pathways, some cross with one another, some don’t.
I question whether I should walk into the maze, or walk around it and gain nothing.
Pondering on the decision, but without even thinking about it; I begin to walk forward.
Slowly going into the labyrinth, I see many path ways, but which one is the right one?
Left, right, forward, back, around I go, yet I couldn’t find the way out and found nothing.
Suddenly I find a path that seems to lead the way out and at the end I find someone.
Someone who seems so dear and sincere to me, a friend or lover?
He seems so promising to me, but is he the one for me?
I spend my time there and feel complete around him; I feel like I found the exit to this maze.
As time goes by he begins to change to someone I don’t know at all.
I begin to question him and he just turns his back to me and ignores all my concerns.
One day I saw him with another person, a girl, and he acted like he was in love with her.
Seeing this before my very own eyes, I left back to the labyrinth and cried with my first broken heart.
Desperate to get out of the maze, I keep going, panicking and searching.
After a few months of wandering around, I got better and learned from my first mistake.
And during these past few months, I made some good friends that were worth keeping in my heart.
Left, right, forward, back, around I go, yet I couldn’t find the right way out and kept getting broken hearts.
Until I reach another exit, and this time I enter with more caution.
I met another person, he seemed great and sweet, but I kept my distance.
When someone else entered, a male, and greeted the other person.
I was introduced to the second male and somehow fell in love immediately.
I stayed there for a while and found out the two were best friends.
The one I loved is the one I was more sincere with and he seemed to truly appreciate it.
Yet, he kept his distance and I didn’t understand why until he explained to me his broken love.
He was madly in love with a girl who didn’t love him the way he did.
I sat there and listened intently because I am his friend and he means so much to me.
His happiness means the world and that’s all that mattered to me.
I encouraged him to go look for her and to keep his love strong.
Strangely with him, I didn’t feel sadness or a broken heart; I felt happy…
Whenever I was with him, I felt so satisfied in life.
He didn’t love me and it didn’t bother me one bit.
One time I confessed my feelings to him and he felt the some sort of feelings towards me but didn’t pursue.
I don’t blame him at all because I know his heart belongs to his long lost love.
I stuck around for a very long time, almost a half a year.
But it was time for me to leave and continue my life.
The two males I met said their goodbyes to me as I left.
As I walked away, I felt a little sad because I left the person I know I truly loved.
If he asked me to do almost anything, I’d do it.
….But it was time I moved on…
I continued on and kept getting broken hearts from lovers and friends.
Once in a while I would hear from the person I loved but kept my feelings bottled up.
He would tell me what’s going on in his life and I would listen as he would listen about my life.
No where could I find my place to be and remained alone for a long while.
Until one day the person I love contacted me with some very sad news.
He tried to pursue the girl he loved again and rejected him once again.
But this time he was just giving up and started looking for a new girl, but found no success.
It took me a while to realize that I actually had a chance with him.
But it would take a year to go back and find him.
From where I stood, I turned around and began running to where he was.
Unfortunately I was deep into the maze and had a very long journey ahead of me.
I only had one problem…I was afraid; I was scared that he wouldn’t love me.
Part of me began to give up and the other part didn’t, so I would go off track once in a while.
But I hope I make it one day and that I’m not too late because what if he is the one?
And what if he isn’t?
Either way, it didn’t matter because as long as he was in my life, I was happy.
So here I am, in this labyrinth trying to find my way back for him.
And honestly, it doesn’t matter what happens anymore.
Because in the end he is worth it all for me.
And if I get a broken heart again, then I must continue on in my journey.
…Just like everyone else in life.

-Sika 4/18/14