i feel like shit. i'm gonna feel like shit for the next week+. monday night was officially the night from fucking hell. me and my buddies (mike and greg ... greg happens to be my bff's boy) all went to harvard square. my bff couldn't go because she had to tend to her mom (her mom fell of her horse and broke several places in the hip.). mike and greg wanted to go to tokyo kid. i did too but that's besides the point. my bff knows that i hang out with her boy sometimes. i was friends with him way before they started dating. so we're up in harvard square then she calls us ud because she can hang out for a little bit and was wondering if we'd be back in time to hang out with her. we had already made plans to go to brookline to meet up with one of mike's friends so we said no. if we weren't meeting up with mike's friend we coulda. so then she gets a little pissy and we hang up with her. she calls back again a little later asking if we can drop everything ... all our plans ... to go and take her to harvard square also. of course we say no cause that woulda been a waste of a trip considering we took the train up there. she gets pissy again and starts to bitch at us saying that we went without her. she couldn't hang out at the time. she had to wait til we were in the middle of shopping around to tell us to go get her. she hangs up on us. she calls back again telling me to hop a train back to hang out with her. i wanted to shop around too. she's my best friend and i love her to death but that is totally a waste of a trip. and i can't tell them to drop everything. it's not my decision. ... and greg was my ride home. she starts to bitch at me saying she is insane to the point where she is thinking about suicide and ending our friendship ... after 15 years. considering she is my best friend, that really hurt me emotionally to hear her say that. we have been there for eachother since 1st grade. she hung up on me once again. i walked around the rest of that night in tears. she did apologize but something like this is not easy to get over. it's hard. it hurts. i now officially feel a little awkward hanging out with her now. anyone that knows me well enough knows that i despise drama (one of the main reasons i dropped outta high school) and awkwardness. that was my week so far. i am now officially back to the emo self i was 3-4 years ago. i hate it.

hellllloooooooooo
i'm a carrrrrrrrr
gas-o-line makes me run
back-seat trunk-space

hellllloooooooooo
let's go for a riidddeeeee
oi-l is my blood
seat-belts radio-knobs


i am aware ... i'm an idiot ... but ... you cannot say that dane cook is not the funniest comedian out there. dane cook is fucking hilarious.

bored ...

i have nothing better to do than work on my myspace, watch videos on youtube.com, and play ffr ...

can't wait til tomorrow ...

i is going to my buddy erin's house tonight in halifax to spend the night. warped tour is tomorrow and we are going. her mom is gonna take us to fitchburg ... hence the staying the night in halifax. i have missed out on warped tour this past 3 years and it has been tearing me apart. those were the good warped tours. i'm happy though. i now get to go to this one.

wicked fucking pissah!!!

don't mind me. i'm bored so i just thought i'd ramble about random shit.

ssoooo ... how are ya? ... "by a round of applause, how do you feel?" ... how goes it? ... how's life? ... how's the family? ...