So, did not get a hair cut, just have a clip in. n_n Im on spring break right now and life is pretty chill. The only probablem I currently have is my reluctant farmers tan xD haha, oh and sunburn. So tommorrow I have soccer practice, should be fun...
Yup, dont know what else to say... heres a nice song...

I fucking LOVE Senses Fail, their lyrics are amazing.
Going to go see them at The Rock in a little while :) I hope it is as good as the first time that I saw them...

I felt kind of cliche having the video up here on top for so long so I decided to type some random speculation. I am kind of in one of those moods, the quiet content yet annalytical kind of mood. If thats a full description of how I am currently feeling, haha I know its not. But any way, to develope some sort of purpose for this post...
So spring break starts after this week, and despite my school hardly ever having a full week I can not wait. I have decent grades but it feels like the teachers love to pile up assignments in the last week of school. For instance, right now I am procrastinating writing a paper for economics, procrastinating on a 300 point project for biology, procrastinating on studying for my geometry test tomorrow, procrastinating on sleeping, and just procrastinating on a whole lot. Yet I am too relaxed and content to care. Haha I feel kind of sorry for people who can't seem to take a step back from life for a moment to enjoy this kind of feeling (if that is how you would like to describe it). So what has been going on in everyone elses life as of late? I know probably no one will comment on this but non the less I like to ask. Curiosity may have killed the cat, but that just means it had 8 more lives to spare. I wonder where anyone came up with that, 'cats have 9 lives'. The word initiative has 4 is in it, is it weird that this bothers me?
I am currently listening to Sleeping With Sirens - Let Love Bleed Red (acoustic). To be honest I am not sure if its the real title of the song, I think I have seen it as other things, but oh well. Tomorrow I have my first soccer game of the season, I am not really excited, I hope I will be tomorrow. Yet not too excited, because then I get stomach aches.
I think I am a little bit lonely right now. It is kind of funny, like, I have a boyfriend now, but I can only see him on the weekends, and I havent seen him for the past two weeks (even though we only just started going out). I have never dated, (like legitimately dated) anyone before, so I am not entirley sure how it works yet. For instance, the next time that I see him, am I supposed to hug him? Kiss him? should I hold his hand if we walk together? I am unsure about a lot of this. And I dont even know if I will be that into the relationship. I am kind of silly in a sense that I dont really beleive in love. I dont really want to sound like a downer, or cliche or anything(even though I am cliche) but, I just, I dont. I do not necessarilt have a reason to not believe in love, I guess I just think it is kind of a superficial concept. I dont know. But at the same time of not believing in love, I would really like a person to share my life with. I am not really interested in the concept of getting married and having children (perhaps that is because I am only 15). I think I would rather try to find a person that I really like (both physically and emotionally) and see if they would be down with just being together for a while, or the rest of our lives, or I dont even know how long. I dont think I have fears of commitment, I think I just like the idea of the two of us not having to be kept by the same... I dont know, 'rules' (if you will) as other people. Like that is the thing, everyone finds the person they like, they get married, they get a house, they have kids. I sometimes think that having kids would be cool, but at the same time I dont think I could do it. Haha, and as for the whole marriage thing, perhaps it is also that I am seeing so many of my friends parents splitting up that I see little hope in the concept. Plus then there is the whole god thing. I dont even want to get into that.
-Time to go on a completely different subject now- Ugh the fan thing that I have for my laptop keeps not workin, which is bad because then my laptop overheats and turns off. It bothers me. I haave decided that I want a jello cake for my birthday this year. Like not even a cake with some jello, I want a full on solid cake of jello. and it is going to be awsome. Alrighty I think Im done testing how much you can type in these things, good night all. :)

Not going to lie, I love this song

if you ask me its more like orgasm they sound so hot in this song. <3