i just don't get it...i'm completely in love with this guy..but at the moment...he treats me horribly...i always told myself right after my first boyfriend...never let anyguy control me...i've always been a logical thinker...but with him...i am nothing but a helpless seal tought to do amazing tricks when awarded(spell that right?)i can't even think clearly around him...im kept in a daze...i know he loves me too and i've successfully convinced myself that everybad thing that happens between us is because of me...but everyone sees how sad i get when something is wrong...its there sign...and they all say the same thing..."just leave him its not worth all of this"...even his bestfriends have said it...but in the end they regretfully deal with the fact that my heart wont turn away from him...it hurts(literally) to even think about not being with him...i dont know...i just dont know what to do anymore...i love him...but he just wont show he loves me...hes still affraid after what happen the first time...most of my close friends are guys so i tell them...and they all say that they wouldve just gotten over it already and gave me another shot because we both wanted it...but i keep telling myself...i dont believe they actually understand...i need help...

i hate the term "taking a break"...in the end it just means that two people broke up...yeh...so that makes me single and hating it...finally found my happiness but he needs time also...this is going to be a dredful 2 weeks...yeh....thats about it

i love to listen to music...but i hate to hear the country...new wave rap and hip hop i find completely useless...(rather hang myself)...i like the oldschool stuff...but the scream of a guitar is what rocks my heart ^_^

yeh..grounded till febuary(spelled wrong?) has ruined many things for me...
my relationship of almost 2 years is going down the drain faster than i can plunge and my social life has gone to me being on AIM and here...i need some friends to visit...my dang boyfriend is barley getting the idea.."maybe i should go over to her house this time" i dont know...someone amuse me..or keep me company please!

no not being a conceded(can not even spell that!) just..i find it funny that when i make friends with people weather its online or in life...the first people i make friends with and get along with first are the guys...my best friends are guys...thats what i get for hangin around my brothers instead of my sisters as a lil kid lol...hey but the good thng,im strong(yet it doesnt show) i can eat like a fat ass(still wont show) and i can out burp half the guys i know...hows that for lady like!(but i would show u that unless i was sure i could)XD