My depersonalization over the last year

[d4u7211]

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This is honestly really awesome that you guys are fighting through like this. It really sucks that you even have to be subjected to all this, but damn dude just look for that light at the end of the tunnel so to speak, it might seem like it'll take a while to get there but you know for sure that you CAN get there.

[Cavernio]

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Keep it up, you'll get through it.

[Zeldagurlfan1]

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i hope you both get better... :/ this is terrible.

[Cavernio]

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How's it going? Did you toss the stuff you bought?

[XXXsmittyXXX]

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Hello there. Thanks for the kind words as usual. I'm still clean but noticing people getting sick who are still using the current blends of herbal incense. They are turning yellow... kidney failure most likely it's really unfortunate.
The chemical compound is so far from the original JWH that it's probably not even a drug anymore. I feel that spice fell into the realm of poison. Cavernio, i didn't throw out that black diamond i sold it to my buddy a few hours after i got it. I physically feel amazing now and i can't stop eating food all throughout the day.
Things are okay around the house staying productive still i have become quite the neat freak but my emotions are funky. Anxiety and i have weird episodes of bipolar from time to time. My gf disappeared recently for a few days but i found her she is back i think she smoked spice though lol dummy i forgive though

[choof]

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iirc spenner recommended to me to buy kratom online, the stuff they sell at smoke shops is generally pretty weak and not pure kratom (or something)

I'm really not that interested in it, just saw it at a nearby smoke shop and was curious.

Super glad you're feeling better though; nice to see your community's smoke shops getting owned

[XXXsmittyXXX]

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I'm off the kratom now too. If i ever feel i can't make it i'll definitely order some borneo / thai kratom online in the powdered form. I had ordered some prior but i cancelled order i don't need it anymore i don't have anymore physical withdrawal symptoms it's great. The shop version aren't half bad if you pop 6 capsules and go work a shift or something.
Thanks! and yeah, theyre getting owned alright but a few are so monopolized that it's impossible to shut them down, because of the amount of lawyers they possess.

[Mollocephalus]

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I know how you feel smitty, but other than trying to help people who can still be saved, don't bother, and i'd actually suggest distancing yourself from people who are still using the drug - any drug. I'm going to be blunt here, sadly these people will only go down, unless they make a change like you did. Their influence is as poisonous as the substance they're using.

What about the woman next door? Is she pregnant by you? is she the same one in the picture? I'm curious as to what are you planning to do with your life right now that you're kicking the habit and getting rid of all that poison, both physically and mentally.

[choof]

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smitty's just trying to help people who are in the same situation that he was in

don't be so misanthropic

[dAnceguy117]

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i don't have anymore physical withdrawal symptoms it's great.

hell yeah, man. keep going!

[XXXsmittyXXX]

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I know how you feel smitty, but other than trying to help people who can still be saved, don't bother, and i'd actually suggest distancing yourself from people who are still using the drug - any drug. I'm going to be blunt here, sadly these people will only go down, unless they make a change like you did. Their influence is as poisonous as the substance they're using.

What about the woman next door? Is she pregnant by you? is she the same one in the picture? I'm curious as to what are you planning to do with your life right now that you're kicking the habit and getting rid of all that poison, both physically and mentally.

Oh no no no she is staying here and not using. She just had a minor slip up, i'm not distancing myself from someone willing to change. Hell, i was willing, and still saw the drug all along the way and still managed to quit. Dev and i do not talk anymore she is in a lot of trouble with the army right now for sleeping with a soldier but yes i did get her pregnant and she's not the same one, my current gfs name is Erika.

As to what i'm planning to do with my life, WHAT? work and fight the good fight and do real things other than dope. That should have been obvious

[Mollocephalus]

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Oh no no no she is staying here and not using. She just had a minor slip up, i'm not distancing myself from someone willing to change.

Of course not, but i was under the impression that some of your friends do. You mentioned a buddy whom you sold the drug after you decided to not use it. I guess that's the kind of company you should be distancing from IMO.

Dev and i do not talk anymore she is in a lot of trouble with the army right now for sleeping with a soldier but yes i did get her pregnant and she's not the same one, my current gfs name is Erika.

Didn't mean to intrude your privacy on this, sorry man. Your relationships just confuse me

As to what i'm planning to do with my life, WHAT? work and fight the good fight and do real things other than dope. That should have been obvious

This question was tied to the previous question, so feel free to disregard it.

Whatever you do, i sincerely hope you can get completely off the drug mindset, not just the drug itself. You must now know to what extent they will turn your life into shit, leaving you empty handed and essentially giving you nothing but suffering and death. Whatever you were looking for in a drug, learn to find it somewhere else. There are plenty of resources in life for every need, be it phsychological, phisical or even "spiritual". Best of luck & keep going strong man!

[cute_wen_u_scream]

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Hope youre alright buddy. U were in a dream i had last night, and now reading this makes me really worried. Please get yourself better and keep your head strong! Let me know if i can help!! Miss u friend! Xoxo

[choof]

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sick bump (srsly)
smitty popped into prochat a bit ago and he's been doing good, I think I mentioned that he should update this thread lol

[korny]

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Hope youre alright buddy. U were in a dream i had last night, and now reading this makes me really worried. Please get yourself better and keep your head strong! Let me know if i can help!! Miss u friend! Xoxo

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