1/19/26 Birthday
Posted on: January 19, 2026, at 07:55:19pm

I don't know how much I can take all of this anymore. I have done so much to others in a bad way I want to stop being this kind of person I can't take it. This will be a message I put up here and won't post for a while. Absolutely got no one around personally to be able to talk to I got no one. All of the anger and guilt is built in me and I don't want it anymore, easy way out is something really in my favor. I really want her back, but it's been too late. My life has changed way too good all of last year I can't stand that my choices led to going down the same route I was in for a very long time. Just emptiness, loss, and pain. I wish I could've did better and not be an a**hole. I don't even believe in myself. I don't want to be sh*tty at all ever again. I am sorry. Never would I think that I would be alone again having this feeling it is so terrible.